New segment of the episode.

"aaahh, please time... dont move too fast... "

When I woke up this morning, I just realised that this week is the last week i'm being an unemployment. Next week on March 28th, I'm gonna be a full time employee for one of the leading fashion label in Jakarta. 

Honestly, deep in mind, i feel excited already, because I know I'm gonna find new experiences, meeting lot of people and working for real! *I mean everyday,9am - 5pm*. The problem is, all this time, I never used to waking up early in the morning, and starting next Monday, I'll never be able to getting up late anymore. *at least till the 4 months probation finished.* hikssss... It probably just a small issue for you all, and seems like I'm being 'lebay', but believe me, I'm trying the best I can, to waking up early. and its TREMENDOUSLY DIFFICULT!! Hoah, I'm gonna miss the moment when I enjoy the time cuddling pillow inside my blanket, waking up only to check my BB in the morning and close my eyes again so I can continue my dreams, leyeh-leyeh and all daily routines.

...But, in the end it'll never leads me to a great feedback. If I keep continue doing what I like and never wanna start to move on or trying something new, I'm gonna lost many oppurtunities, many happiness and experiences. Sooo this is me, trying to build my own happiness, looking many things as far as I can explore. I have too many chances in life, and its gonna be so much wasteful if I sacrifice that chances just because a temporary pleasure.

I love being in my comfort zone. But if i only spinning on it over and over again, I'll never be a better person. The time is running out, and i hope i can elevate my life to something better. I do not know what will happen in the future, would i get bored or would i get fired later because i can't do my job properly.. all i know i want to giving this chances a shot and learn harder!!! 

GODSPEED! hahhaaaa...

One of the most exciting part of this new job is i can wear almost anything i like! I can wear shorts, pencil skirt, dress, tanktop, blazer, anything! as long as it looks stylish and appropriate. Thus, I'm doing a mix and match for my daily look! hahahaa..

This is one of my experiment. Sorry, the glasses is a a must! 

I'm bad when i have to being cool, i guess the glasses can help! hahahaa..

Thanks for reading.

XOXO

Morning Zombie!

Hoaahh.. Hello guys... its Monday already, nope.. err.. its Tuesday...

Okey i think i have this serious illness, I can't sleep properly at night.. Its 2.22 am right now. I mean, no matter how tired I am or how great I planned to be able to sleep at night (like deliberatly not sleep at noon, so I can catch my early night sleep) still, I can't sleep. Most of them called it Insomnia. 

I think this issue getting bigger when i started to realise that i'm not waking up with fit as a fiddle feelings. My back ache, my head spinning and i knew, i started to killed my self slowly. Some of my friends said maybe i had some problems i haven't solved, or another psychology troubles. Hence, i think backwards and found nothing was going wrong till now. There's no such a big problem i have to finished. Everything went well.

Every night i've tried to stay inside my blanket, trying to sleep, closing my eyes and empty-ing my mind. But for several hours, still I'm unable to sleep due to this ailment syndrome. *sigh*. Sooo' I'm a Morning zombie at this moment. I can't sleep and I decided to post something on my blog. hehehe...

Oyeah, I had this liltle reunion with my DKV 4 members last Saturday Night.

We going dinner at Zenbu resto in Senopati. Recommended place. They had a very delicious Ramen and Mozaru rice with affordable prices. Like usual, we taking lots of pictures. hahaha..

Here are they!

Thankies Girls, I had so much fun, uncountable laughs, and gossips. hahahaa.. we should hangout more often for sure! : D

Oke, its time for me to (trying to) sleep!

Morning Zombie Sign Out! : D

XOXO

SUPERSEMAR! : )

Today i celebrate SUPERSEMAR (Surat Perjanjian Sebelas Maret) too like Soeharto did in 1966. Ahhahaa... I signed an important contract that i've been waiting for. Hope its gonna lead me to the new beginning of my self. The new version of me, cause i'm gonna discover tons of new challenges, new point of views of anything, and i hope as time goes by and in this new step of life, i can be the best version of my self. : )

Oyeah, several days ago, i found a website that contains images with quotes inside it. its trully interesting for me, i love the photograph and it fits really great with the quotes. Here are some of them....

Inspiring, right??

HAPPY WEEKEND GOOD PEOPLE!

: )

XOXO

The benefit of the backspace key!

This video just goes to show how the internet is allowing us to edit our emotions. Without face to face interaction and with the benefit of the backspace key, we are able to edit and rethink what we are going to say before hitting the enter key. 

I pretty sure that most of you have been trapped in this kind of situation. But maybe not in the chat tab like this.. hahahaa.. I totally in love with this video, it really shows how it really is. Sometimes, you wanna tell someone how you feel, but you don't.... I  know for sure that most people probably will do this kind of thing every once and a while, including me. Sometimes I just write what I really want to say then delete it, but it makes me feel better to have at least typed it out without click the enter button. Hahahhaaa...

This is the fact that sometimes we dont have a guts to bluntly saying what we feel. Its pathetic, because we just gonna ended up with curiousity.. Frankly, This has happened to me countless times. Not only on the chat tab, not only about love but in the daily problems of life too. In the workplace, in the daily interactions with other people, uumm.. not often, but once in a while, based on the situations, i'm doing that. This is one of my shortcomings i guess (at least that's what i thought!). I admit, i'm not a  straightforward person, sometimes I rule out my opinion, so everything gonna run as it supposed to be and *poff*, the problem solved. 

I'm satisfied for a while if everything going smooth and act like i'm okay. But somewhile, i got the upset feelings all over my head, thinking "Why i don't have the courage to telling what i wanted to say, it might be lead to the result that i have been waiting for!" .... and it tortured me sometimes. The lack of confidence, not enough guts, the fear of getting rejections, and uneasy feeling towards the opposite opinions might be one of the trigger. Pity huh? : ( . 

What about you?? Doing the same way too??

Sorry for the very small screen of the video, i don't know how to make it larger. 

But you can see the video more clearly HERE! enjoy! ; )

XOXO.

MIRROR ERROR

The Video of a million expressions, 

unfortunately it can't be uploaded on this blog. i dont know why. :(

Doing this moron liltle things that i usually do with dad. This was one of them. Its sublimely FUN!!! i laughted all the time when i saw mine and dad's face in this mirror's camera mode. This all started when dad wanted to move some data on my PC, when we busy waiting till data appears, i told him i'm making this silly photographs last night.. since my father was not into technology that much, he curious how could i can make a photo like that? its like an alien, but with silly expression. Then i told him how to make it, a minute after, he totally into it! he making like a tons of silly expression in the camera and i just laugh out loud everytime i saw the result!!! kikikiiikk.. and these are some of them...

Best expression so far! sure we gonna make another HIT after this! :D


HAPPY MARCH YOU ALL! BYE! : )


XOXO

ORDINARY SATURDAY.

Hohohoo, its Saturday Night again... what are you guys doing on this super rainy day?? I dont know why but today, i feel exhausted all over my body. Maybe because the unification lack of sleeps, and too many activity that i had in front of my PC. My eyes got sore easily lately. *sigh* Oh yeah, yesterday my friends Novani and Cella, came and doing sleepover at my house, because my mom and dad going to Bali for couple of days and i don't wanna left alone, i invited them to accompany me. hehehe.. besides, i wanna learn AI (adobe illustrator) more deeper with them. 

Shortly, the thing not going as smooth as we planned, we planned to arrived at my house on 5pm, but the reality, we just got back at my home after dinner at 10. hahhaaa. Yeah, no wonder, with 0,5 watt sleppy eyes, i still forced them to teach me AI. hahahaa... 

After around 1 hour studied, we felt sleepy and saturated, so we decided to sleep. But... Girls will be girls, we enjoyed doing chit chat before we hit the bed (even when we already in the bed and covered with blanket.. hahahaa) we shared stories, laughing, recent activities, boys, gossiping, and many things. Without we noticed, we not falls asleep till 5 in the morning! ahahahaa.. 

i don't know where we find the energy to passed the time. 

Yeah, i admit, being a girls is incredibly FUN! :))

In the morning, i have to bring back Novani to her house, because she's got this important interview and i have to take her on time so she's not gonna missed it. I dropped her at MTA (Mall Taman Anggrek), this is the first time, i went to the mall without taking a bath first, didn't combed my hair, sleppy eyes and wore my pajamas short pants. I'm sooo mess. but who cares.. hahahaa.. Lucky that i'm not accidentally met someone i knew on that place. :))

So' this Gembel Girl, didnt lost her dignity to entered the mall. hahhaa.. i'm going around alone, doing windows shopping, trying clothes and anything. Maybe the shopkeeper on the store that i entered think that i am the lost housekeeper who's looking for her boss, based on my total outfits. hahaha! at least that what my imaginary brain's think.

Windows shopping went well, i'm successfully going home with this new pair of platform heels. *sigh* I did this several time, i allowed my self to bought something i don't even urgently need. HUH! Bad habit! But' i really lust this pastel platform (its dusty pink!), i'm in lovee since the first time i saw it. hihiiii... Its only one left, and it fits on me really great! maybe its meant to be mine, dont they? hehehe... *maksa*

My new baby! Gonna wear you soon beib...

You have no idea, how hard i took this picture on the floor! haha

Okay no more shopping till the next and next month! i am poor already! 

I need to fill my saving with amount of money! Oke. Mark my words.

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... And for the rest of the day, i just slept and worked in front of my PC. At those spare time, i've tried to draw Nemo the fish. And voila, here he/she (i haven't decide it gender yet) is!

MEET MY NEMO-NEMO

Kak Gaura said, it would be better if i called this fish Bemo instead of Nemo, 

yeah based on his/her lips. HUH! I think he/she is quite sexy with those lips!

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Okey. Enough said!

HAPPY SATURDAY FRIENDS! : )

XOXO

REMINDER : )

Last night, i do a minor "curhat" session with one of my boy-friend, Pramaditya, who lives in Australia now to finished his study. Its been quite long time i've never shared my personal thought to him. So far, He's one of my closest friend, who always been straightforward and never do a fake opinions. So oneday, i stuck with this problem and i need a boy's point of views on this issue. hehehee.. Honestly, it was not an important issue for me, but i just wanna shared so i'm not ended up with guessing and curiousity. hahahaa..

sooo, here's the core of our liltle conversation. 

NOTED. NOTED. NOTED. : )

I have to captured it and save it, so oneday, if i lost my dignity of my self (again), towards anything in life (not just on this unimportant problem), i could re-read this image and believed that i worth better. hehee.. Btw, i love your statement Pram when you said that i have to start respected my self. I do respected my self, but i think it wasnt enough, sometimes under my consciousness, i exclude my self for other people's happiness. Hihihiii.. thanks for being my reminder last night. It seems "lebay" but, i deeply appreciated. yeah. I deserve better. : )

Just let me know when you get back to Jakarta. Sending my best prayer for you! kikikiiikk...

XOXO say.. ; )